Giving Up Control, Walking with God in Community.

I thought I had everything planned—a future with my husband and two young boys—but several unexpected blows changed everything. In the midst of a global pandemic, a single revelation shattered my world, sending me on a journey I didn’t expect—one of heartbreak, rediscovery, and an unexpected path toward faith.

In 2020, I was living in the state of California with my husband of 5 years and our boys, ages 2 and 4. Lockdowns were in full force, and I was anxiously trying to control every aspect of our lives. I was worried about the direction of the state, most notably with the school system our boys would soon be a part of. My husband was acting out and isolating himself while going through some crisis I couldn't understand. Then, the day after Christmas 2020, he dropped a bombshell: he was transgender and had plans to transition into a woman. My world came crashing down and all my planning and preparation for our future was flushed down the toilet.

In 2021, during the divorce proceedings, I moved to Colorado to be closer to my family. Losing all control of my plans rocked me and convinced me there had to be a higher power taking control and the direction of my life - and I was determined to seek out this guiding “force.” A single mom in a brand new state, I was terrified. I began attending church and felt the Lord call me to Himself. And slowly, my life completely changed. There wasn't an "ah-ha!" or a specific moment, but one day at a time, one step at a time, and one decision at a time, I became intentional about pursuing my faith and learning about Jesus.

Soon I found myself serving weekly at church and joining a life group just for single moms, supported by Not Alone. Shortly thereafter, I began leading my own group of single moms in this community. And since then, I have been blessed beyond measure! I have some of the most solid and meaningful friendships I've ever had in my life and these women have brought me closer to Jesus. I feel more seen and loved than I thought possible. The support my sons and I receive is unmatched and this community is always here for me in a moment's notice. God is the one who has changed me, but Not Alone has allowed me to follow His calling for my life.